Well, not so much Cochrane, but my friends. As I sit here on the 2nd level of this really tall house, listening to the right earphone of my headphones and watching two dogs having a fight over who gets to sniff my clothes, I know where my friends are. In their beds, at home, still asleep, like I was doing at the same time today. It's wierd, how time and travelling works, you can fly somewhere and be there before you left at home. Or you could be 8 hours ahead of where you're used to being. Hard to explain, but it messes my head up.
I realise now that I am going to find it really hard to leave home and my friends for good. I mean, it'll definitely be different than coming to europe, with everyone speaking the same language instead of a different one and such, but I will still be away from the rolling foothills and rocky mountains of cochrane, alberta. And THEN I start listening to the Rural Alberta Advantage and I start liking them mroe and more each time. It's tragically wonderful.
And I realise I shot myself in the foot a bit while I was here. It literally JUST hit me now that my biggest secret is now known to pretty much everyone that I hang out with on a regular basis. Like, it's great cause now I can finally fucking be MYSELF, but now I think it's going to be super awkward if I ever hang out with warren 1 on 1 again. I mean, I'm not really interested in him and I wouldn't jeopardize what him and Mallory have, but I don't know if he knows that I wouldn't try anything. And I really am nervous to actually talk to him in person when I come back. I mean, jeeeez. I'm fine with girls. But Warren is basically the only guy friend that I have and now it may or may not be awkward. :( I'll see what happens. Hopefully nothing and we can just keep on living like we have been since we've been friends.
Enough about me longing for home! TEXXXEEELLLLL! Fucking beaaauuutiful place. I felt like I was in a place that didn't know what it was. There were bits of rural holland that I'm used to, there was some California beaches and dunes, and maritime buildings and landscapes. It was unnnreal, and I'm defintiely coming back whenever I'm here next. AAANÑND! I'm like brown right now. Got a bitchin farmers tan, but the normally untanned part is just LESS tanned!! Not like pale! It's wondrous! Except I'm pretty sure it's going to fade before I come home cause thats just how much my skin loves me.
And Dutch people have NO idea how to camp. Like omfg it's stupid. A) all the campgrounds had indoor bathrooms and showers with drinking water and maybe a sitting room and a restaurant. WTF. Tarded. B) NO FIREPITS. I was looking forward to having a good ole fashioned campfire but noooooooooooo. -_-
We had a camper, too. So basically it was like living slightly uncomfortably for 2 days when there was probably a hotel/motel about a 5 minute drive away. Whatever, it was pretty fun.
Yesterday Zusan, Lia and I went on like a 35-40 km bike ride around the area. I wasn't really tired at all on account of whenever I have to bike I have to go up like a 60 degree angle. Here its so friggen flat and the only hills are the dikes that are barely anything. We were going up the big dike and I was at the top and they were like halfway up and out of breathe. It was superb. I felt so fit and great about myself at the end of the day, and then I got drunk and had a great talk with Rita!
Today, got up, had breakfast, and went to the stables with Zusan, and I RODE A FUCKIN HORSE FOR LIKE 15 MIN. It was soo fun, but really bumpy and my ass hurts from that and the long ass bike ride yesterday. OH, I really really love european guys. Just putting that out there. There are some ugly ones but lots of hot guys too. Oh, yeah, so the horse ride, i stopped because it went WAY faster than I wanted it to for like 5 seconds and I got a little terrified so I just stopped haha. Definitely something I wanna do again, though.
I can't friggen believe that it's already almost been 3 weeks. As much as I wanna go home theres a little part of me that doesn't want to leave, cause I feel guilty sometimes that I haven't been hanging out with Zus as much as I could, but thats cause I got homesick and wanted to talk to my friends. But still, home is getting more and more appealing every day.
And I think they're having a going away party for me tomorrow night, cause yesterday before the bike ride I came here to change, and there was like 5 full flats of beer in the front, probably what I wasn't supposed to see.
Anyways, I'm going to write a few post cards and send them, then put the keg of heineken in the fridge, and then shower! I MISS YOU KEIRA. <3
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Hurrayyy! Going camping this weekend on texel! With Annika and Aronn!
So I keep seeing these stupid tag a friend things on facebook but i really wanna make one of my own except NOT put it on facebook! So, I'm just writing down what they say and saying someone who it is.
TAG: realisation: most of these apply to keira but for the sake of monotony i'm just gonna do other people. lol. dirty. Actually I'm just gonna say the 1st few people who pop into my head
A new friend: Andy, I suppose? NewEST friend, I suppose ahah
Your best friend: Keira, Sarah, Louann, Mallory, Warren, Lauren
Someone you met when you were little: Keira
The person with the best smile: Jenna
Someone you always have fun with: Shelby, Sarah
Someone you realized you can't live without: All my best friends haha
Someone who likes good music: Warren and Keira have the most similarities
Someone you used to be really close with: Jordan or Scott
The smartest person you know: Haley Brett
Someone with really nice hair: Sarah, Keira. omg it's raining!
The sweetest person you've ever known: Tessa
The person with the prettiest eyes: Keira, Jane, Sarah
Someone who makes ya laugh till you hurt: Sarah mostly hahah. Louann as well
A truly good friend: Louann and Keira and Sarah
Person you can talk to about ANYTHING: Keira. I can talk about ANYTHING to her.
Friend who knows you better than any of your other friends: Keira
The prettiest girl you know: My cousin annika is actually like holy shit how am I related to her?
Someone who changed your life: Keira mofuckin brown
Your very first crush: Haahaha keira
So I keep seeing these stupid tag a friend things on facebook but i really wanna make one of my own except NOT put it on facebook! So, I'm just writing down what they say and saying someone who it is.
TAG: realisation: most of these apply to keira but for the sake of monotony i'm just gonna do other people. lol. dirty. Actually I'm just gonna say the 1st few people who pop into my head
A new friend: Andy, I suppose? NewEST friend, I suppose ahah
Your best friend: Keira, Sarah, Louann, Mallory, Warren, Lauren
Someone you met when you were little: Keira
The person with the best smile: Jenna
Someone you always have fun with: Shelby, Sarah
Someone you realized you can't live without: All my best friends haha
Someone who likes good music: Warren and Keira have the most similarities
Someone you used to be really close with: Jordan or Scott
The smartest person you know: Haley Brett
Someone with really nice hair: Sarah, Keira. omg it's raining!
The sweetest person you've ever known: Tessa
The person with the prettiest eyes: Keira, Jane, Sarah
Someone who makes ya laugh till you hurt: Sarah mostly hahah. Louann as well
A truly good friend: Louann and Keira and Sarah
Person you can talk to about ANYTHING: Keira. I can talk about ANYTHING to her.
Friend who knows you better than any of your other friends: Keira
The prettiest girl you know: My cousin annika is actually like holy shit how am I related to her?
Someone who changed your life: Keira mofuckin brown
Your very first crush: Haahaha keira
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Drama is SO much harder to deal with when you're halfway around the world
On the bright side: the trip is good!
This blog is officially international, PS. Coming from Sint Maarten, North Holland, The Netherlands. =D I also miss blogging, surprisingly a lot.
Sooo, what lessons have I learned so far since i've been here?
A) People talk too much
B) I dunno i forgot it earlier. But it was important... I think... I dunno I had to close this tab cause Zusans bf came in and i'm like noooooooooooo. haha. I'm a tramp.
So, you whoever reads this (no one) wish to be filled in? Mkay, where should I start....
Oh, right. First, I'm gay. Gaaaaygaygay. Love guys, wish they'd love me more, but whatevs. I'm good for now. Sort of.
Second, Cole Firkus. He started talking to me about a week & a half before I left for this great place, cause for some reason my fb said I was interested in men. Which, although true, definitely wasn't supposed to be like that. So we kept talking and he asked me about it and i'm like... what? And I saw my profile and I'm like well yeah I am but that's DEFINITELY not supposed to be like that. =D I know, I'm oh so bold. It was super, really.. liberating? God I sound like a housewife from the '50s. Either way, we've basically been talking ever since sorta. He's cute enough, but not really my type, kinda, well cocky isnt the right word for it but i'm trying to get this done fast so cocky is good enough. I dunno, but he's a good enough guy.
Third. A few days after I started texting cole and such, I was feeling pretty damn good about myself (and high as fuck) and decided to tell, well, two people who I knew I could trust: Louann and Lauren. Great gals. Lauren I told first, she texted me about this note and Tessa wanted to know who I liked and if it was her so she asked Lauren to ask me, well I'm like nah its a guuuuyyyyy.. And she was like fo shizz? And yeah, pretty good. Louann I told over facebook cause she asked who I liked as well. Soo, basically two people on the same night, pretty dece, if I do say so myself.
Still don't know where this is going? Well, let's get back to that in a little bit, I have to fill in the gaps between then and now.
Louann basically is one of my best friends right now, other than Keira & Sarah. Like, in order, my best friends are this
1. Keira, obvious reasons. Sister.
2. Sarah and Louann tie basically cause they are both my besties just, our hangouts are quite different, maybe that's soon to change, I dunno
3. Lauren. Even though I don't really see much of her, we haven't ever had a not good time and we can talk to each other really easily. Can't friggen wait till I see her.
4. Warren, basically my only guy friend. (who now knows about.. me hurray. This will be elaborated on later) And he's someone I can ACTUALLY call a friend, which is wierd to say about a guy.
5. Mallory, we always have a friggen great time together (minus the time we found warrens car smashed up in an intersection) and now SHE knows as well. I can talk to her easily.
So two days before I left, Louann and I had a great catch up dinner at Earls - friggen delicious food, but that was the first time I've ever had to pay for something at a restaurant (like an actual one) and it waslike $55 for the both of us haha. Deffs wasn't expecting that.
So then the day before I left, I really wasn't feeling the sleeping till only like 3 AM thing, so I just decided to stay up the whole night. Went for an epic walk/chill at my place with keira till about 10, and then Red(omnomnom) dropped off a fucking HUUUGE 20 bag. And he GAVE ME HIS BONG (now for keeps cause he 'had a bad trip' and don't wanna smoke weed anymore. pansy.) so yeah that night Shelby, Brett Loader, and James Sambrook all came over and we had a super good time, and I went to the airport SUPER FUCKING BAKED OUT OF MY MIND. Like omg planes = trippiest/funnest thing ever. Then I slept till the plane got to houston, then we had a good time. Had something to eat in houston, waited for a while, got on a plane to amsterdam. Don't feel like giving details abuot all that, so I'll just leave it for another blog (or not).
Got to Holland, Jamie, Wil and Lia picked me up, went to Burgerbrug where W&L live, then went to Sint Maarten to be with Zusan & family. Super great, minus Melvin and Jamie screaming at each other all day. Went to amsterdam on tuesday, had a boat tour through the canals, then walked around and did a shitload of shopping, then came back to SM. <- nice my initials
Okay, birthday party. Basically, best birthday I've ever had. Had a 'surprise' party which was really obvious. "Oh, lets go to your cousins birthday party on YOUR birthday!" Yeah, okay. Hah, but it was a super good time, got super super tanked, did some things apparantly that I don't remember, and met about 35 people that I don't know who are related to me and I don't remember anyone's name. Good times all around, obvs. My cousins say they're going to find me a nice dutch girl to hook up with. That'll go over SO well, I can already tell.
Haha lawl, when I'm on the subject of family and hooking up with people, it turns out Aaron, Julian(Yulian), and Zusan all hooked up with the same girl at different times. My family is CLEARLY just THAT classy. Best part is is that its two guys and a girl. Haha.
Okay, drama time! August 14th: not a great day, for multiple reasons.
2 AM: Spent half an hour clinging to the toilet, no puke (thank god)
10 AM: Rita calls from the other side of the door asking me if I still wanna go to the cheese market in Alkmaar. Prospect of cheese or any other kind of puke makes me want to vomit. I say no and miss out on a once in a year (at least) experience, I'll go next time.
2 PM: Wake up finally, feeling pree good. Eat a friggen delicious sandwich, go to Lia and Wil's to spend the weekend.
11:39 PM: Louann sends me a facebook message: "
so basically, mallory knowswhich means more than likely warren knowsand i don't know who they'll tell or have told..mallory called me and she said cole said you two had been texting a lot and that you were gay. just wanted to let you know..i don't know why they started talking but ya i guess he told her"
DRAAMMAAA TIIIMMEEEE! Sooo, basically this is what happened. Cole and Ali Magee work together. Cole was telling Ali about how lately him and I have been texting/talking on msn a lot lately, and that I am a pretty cool guy. Ali, being that clever feline that she is, comes to the obvious conclusion that, yes, I am gay. Omg Cole, way to make it friggen obvious. -_-. So, Ali goes to talk to Mallory to see if she knows anything about this, Mal says no, Mal promises not to tell anyone. However, Mal decided that it would be appropriate (which it WAS) to ask Louann. Louann had no choice but to confirm this. Oh, and Ali told Mal and Warren at the same time on account of the fact that they were together when Ali went to Mal. Sweet. So, Louann sends me that message, thank god, and little old me on another continent kind of freaks out a bit. Great, now everyones gonna know I'm gay! However, so far I am in the dark about everything. I THINK Cole just went and told Mallory for some reason that I'm gay. So I said some nasty things to him but I apologized and we're good now. And I was worried that cole told a bunch of OTHER people that I'm gay. But, alas, only Ali that we were friends now. And I was worried Ali was telling everyone, but she just went to Mallory. And now everything, to a degree, is good with me. (rhyme for the win) However, Mallory and Ali are now in a fight because Ali is mad at Mal because Mal went to Louann cause she was worried that maybe Warren and I had done something. (which, just for clarification, has never happened) So, now Ali and Louann and Mallory are in this whole big shpiel which I don't care about because I am going to keep the rest of my vacation as drama free as possible.
Also, I am addicted to this yogurt drink they have here called Yoki. Friggen delicious, and comes in giant milk containers. I want to live here.
I was going to add something else as well but I forget, thats for another day.
Song of the month: 'Joyride' by Metric.
Got this song off of youtube cause it isn't released anywhere, friggen delicious. Emily Haines = god.
What have we started?
Reverse locomotion
Predictions and planets align
Fire my apprentice
The expert back benchers
Predict a decline
Send an explosive good-bye to my restraint
Cover my ears and close my eyes
This is our last joy ride
If the abyss doesn't hide then
When I don't want to hear I just
Cover my ears and close my eyes
And when our next joy ride
Hits an abyss and we collide
Will you cover my ears if I cover your eyes
No stop it, momentum, slow motion, collision
Ask me a questionI'm under hypnosis
I'm conscious and barely alive
I feel terrific
Effects soporific
My honest reply
Until the opposite side
Returns full strength then
Cover my ears and close my eyes
And when our next joy ride
Hits an abyss and we collide
Will you cover my ears if I cover your eyes
No stop it, momentum, slow motion, collision
This blog is officially international, PS. Coming from Sint Maarten, North Holland, The Netherlands. =D I also miss blogging, surprisingly a lot.
Sooo, what lessons have I learned so far since i've been here?
A) People talk too much
B) I dunno i forgot it earlier. But it was important... I think... I dunno I had to close this tab cause Zusans bf came in and i'm like noooooooooooo. haha. I'm a tramp.
So, you whoever reads this (no one) wish to be filled in? Mkay, where should I start....
Oh, right. First, I'm gay. Gaaaaygaygay. Love guys, wish they'd love me more, but whatevs. I'm good for now. Sort of.
Second, Cole Firkus. He started talking to me about a week & a half before I left for this great place, cause for some reason my fb said I was interested in men. Which, although true, definitely wasn't supposed to be like that. So we kept talking and he asked me about it and i'm like... what? And I saw my profile and I'm like well yeah I am but that's DEFINITELY not supposed to be like that. =D I know, I'm oh so bold. It was super, really.. liberating? God I sound like a housewife from the '50s. Either way, we've basically been talking ever since sorta. He's cute enough, but not really my type, kinda, well cocky isnt the right word for it but i'm trying to get this done fast so cocky is good enough. I dunno, but he's a good enough guy.
Third. A few days after I started texting cole and such, I was feeling pretty damn good about myself (and high as fuck) and decided to tell, well, two people who I knew I could trust: Louann and Lauren. Great gals. Lauren I told first, she texted me about this note and Tessa wanted to know who I liked and if it was her so she asked Lauren to ask me, well I'm like nah its a guuuuyyyyy.. And she was like fo shizz? And yeah, pretty good. Louann I told over facebook cause she asked who I liked as well. Soo, basically two people on the same night, pretty dece, if I do say so myself.
Still don't know where this is going? Well, let's get back to that in a little bit, I have to fill in the gaps between then and now.
Louann basically is one of my best friends right now, other than Keira & Sarah. Like, in order, my best friends are this
1. Keira, obvious reasons. Sister.
2. Sarah and Louann tie basically cause they are both my besties just, our hangouts are quite different, maybe that's soon to change, I dunno
3. Lauren. Even though I don't really see much of her, we haven't ever had a not good time and we can talk to each other really easily. Can't friggen wait till I see her.
4. Warren, basically my only guy friend. (who now knows about.. me hurray. This will be elaborated on later) And he's someone I can ACTUALLY call a friend, which is wierd to say about a guy.
5. Mallory, we always have a friggen great time together (minus the time we found warrens car smashed up in an intersection) and now SHE knows as well. I can talk to her easily.
So two days before I left, Louann and I had a great catch up dinner at Earls - friggen delicious food, but that was the first time I've ever had to pay for something at a restaurant (like an actual one) and it waslike $55 for the both of us haha. Deffs wasn't expecting that.
So then the day before I left, I really wasn't feeling the sleeping till only like 3 AM thing, so I just decided to stay up the whole night. Went for an epic walk/chill at my place with keira till about 10, and then Red(omnomnom) dropped off a fucking HUUUGE 20 bag. And he GAVE ME HIS BONG (now for keeps cause he 'had a bad trip' and don't wanna smoke weed anymore. pansy.) so yeah that night Shelby, Brett Loader, and James Sambrook all came over and we had a super good time, and I went to the airport SUPER FUCKING BAKED OUT OF MY MIND. Like omg planes = trippiest/funnest thing ever. Then I slept till the plane got to houston, then we had a good time. Had something to eat in houston, waited for a while, got on a plane to amsterdam. Don't feel like giving details abuot all that, so I'll just leave it for another blog (or not).
Got to Holland, Jamie, Wil and Lia picked me up, went to Burgerbrug where W&L live, then went to Sint Maarten to be with Zusan & family. Super great, minus Melvin and Jamie screaming at each other all day. Went to amsterdam on tuesday, had a boat tour through the canals, then walked around and did a shitload of shopping, then came back to SM. <- nice my initials
Okay, birthday party. Basically, best birthday I've ever had. Had a 'surprise' party which was really obvious. "Oh, lets go to your cousins birthday party on YOUR birthday!" Yeah, okay. Hah, but it was a super good time, got super super tanked, did some things apparantly that I don't remember, and met about 35 people that I don't know who are related to me and I don't remember anyone's name. Good times all around, obvs. My cousins say they're going to find me a nice dutch girl to hook up with. That'll go over SO well, I can already tell.
Haha lawl, when I'm on the subject of family and hooking up with people, it turns out Aaron, Julian(Yulian), and Zusan all hooked up with the same girl at different times. My family is CLEARLY just THAT classy. Best part is is that its two guys and a girl. Haha.
Okay, drama time! August 14th: not a great day, for multiple reasons.
2 AM: Spent half an hour clinging to the toilet, no puke (thank god)
10 AM: Rita calls from the other side of the door asking me if I still wanna go to the cheese market in Alkmaar. Prospect of cheese or any other kind of puke makes me want to vomit. I say no and miss out on a once in a year (at least) experience, I'll go next time.
2 PM: Wake up finally, feeling pree good. Eat a friggen delicious sandwich, go to Lia and Wil's to spend the weekend.
11:39 PM: Louann sends me a facebook message: "
so basically, mallory knowswhich means more than likely warren knowsand i don't know who they'll tell or have told..mallory called me and she said cole said you two had been texting a lot and that you were gay. just wanted to let you know..i don't know why they started talking but ya i guess he told her"
DRAAMMAAA TIIIMMEEEE! Sooo, basically this is what happened. Cole and Ali Magee work together. Cole was telling Ali about how lately him and I have been texting/talking on msn a lot lately, and that I am a pretty cool guy. Ali, being that clever feline that she is, comes to the obvious conclusion that, yes, I am gay. Omg Cole, way to make it friggen obvious. -_-. So, Ali goes to talk to Mallory to see if she knows anything about this, Mal says no, Mal promises not to tell anyone. However, Mal decided that it would be appropriate (which it WAS) to ask Louann. Louann had no choice but to confirm this. Oh, and Ali told Mal and Warren at the same time on account of the fact that they were together when Ali went to Mal. Sweet. So, Louann sends me that message, thank god, and little old me on another continent kind of freaks out a bit. Great, now everyones gonna know I'm gay! However, so far I am in the dark about everything. I THINK Cole just went and told Mallory for some reason that I'm gay. So I said some nasty things to him but I apologized and we're good now. And I was worried that cole told a bunch of OTHER people that I'm gay. But, alas, only Ali that we were friends now. And I was worried Ali was telling everyone, but she just went to Mallory. And now everything, to a degree, is good with me. (rhyme for the win) However, Mallory and Ali are now in a fight because Ali is mad at Mal because Mal went to Louann cause she was worried that maybe Warren and I had done something. (which, just for clarification, has never happened) So, now Ali and Louann and Mallory are in this whole big shpiel which I don't care about because I am going to keep the rest of my vacation as drama free as possible.
Also, I am addicted to this yogurt drink they have here called Yoki. Friggen delicious, and comes in giant milk containers. I want to live here.
I was going to add something else as well but I forget, thats for another day.
Song of the month: 'Joyride' by Metric.
Got this song off of youtube cause it isn't released anywhere, friggen delicious. Emily Haines = god.
What have we started?
Reverse locomotion
Predictions and planets align
Fire my apprentice
The expert back benchers
Predict a decline
Send an explosive good-bye to my restraint
Cover my ears and close my eyes
This is our last joy ride
If the abyss doesn't hide then
When I don't want to hear I just
Cover my ears and close my eyes
And when our next joy ride
Hits an abyss and we collide
Will you cover my ears if I cover your eyes
No stop it, momentum, slow motion, collision
Ask me a questionI'm under hypnosis
I'm conscious and barely alive
I feel terrific
Effects soporific
My honest reply
Until the opposite side
Returns full strength then
Cover my ears and close my eyes
And when our next joy ride
Hits an abyss and we collide
Will you cover my ears if I cover your eyes
No stop it, momentum, slow motion, collision
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