It's been a while, old friend!

I have no idea, why, at the time when everyone else is unhappy with SOMETHING, I am generally the happiest I've been for a very long time. The last two to three weeks can honestly be said that they were the best I've had since school started, or even before that. Sarah and I are FINALLY hanging out a lot outside of school, even if this whole sylvester shit is bringing her down & she isn't really handling the problem that well. Sylvester got Franquie involved with it and Sarah is freaking out and saying franquie is being a big bitch, when, in reality, she isn't. (sarah fwed the messages to me) But whatever. Her problem. I really, really want to say something, but she's a sleeping giant and I REALLY do not want to agitate that giant. I'm happy the way we are. :P

Auddie, I'm pretty sure, knows I'm gay. We were talking about red's muscles today during break. And discussing how you never know when a guy is gay or bi these days. Lol. Kind of obvious, but whatever. He's growing less annoying.

I bought new music. It's hot. And I decorated my room a bit! Decorated my one empty wall with album covers & such. Looks really good, I must say! Although I destroyed the boxes that a few of my new CDs came from, thats what the CD booklet box holder thing is for. :) I really need to write that letter to Julie, cause I kind of miss her. Not sure why, but she was a good girl and she was part of my life for a year and a half and I think she just needs some closure between the two of us. MGMT is hot. That is all.

But yeah, I've started to smoke weed regularly again, which I think is part of my new constant (mostly) happy state. Besides the fact that my ipod is gone, I just keep using my papa's, and he doesn't really notice bahahaha. I'm terrible. Watch as this one gets stolen!

I have no idea why I went through that metal band phase thing. It would have been SO much easier just to skip to where I am now. A content balance of indie rock, pop, chill music, and regular rock. Plus some other randoms thrown in there. Oh well, my metal band phase thing is what let me and sarah become such good friends, so I guess that's what I'll thank. And this way, when Sarah talks about a certain band, I know what she's talking about! Silver Lining ftw!

Mallory and Warren are definitely not going to last. Ugh it tears me apart to see them like that, putting on that ruse. I really need to learn to intervene sometimes. One day, I'm going to see some old lady getting mugged, and I am just going to look away and keep moving, which really is not what I would want to do in reality.

IN ADDITION, I need to stop lying to people. Well, its mostly about the football thing, but if anyone in my family hears about it, I am going to be fucked repeatedly. Hopefully it's by Red? If I had anyone I had to choose from, it would be him. I actually like him though, which is the odd thing. I don't just WANT him, I am starting to think I need him? But that's impossible, because we see each other at work only, and we've hung out like, twice on the weekends. But, he's just so.... flirty. Argh. His texts to me all have winky or smily faces on them, but I'm not sure if he does that to everyone or just to me. Blargh. Oh well, if he ends up not liking that stuff, I'm sure we'll still be friends. He is somewhat friends with Auddie, after all.



I am so SUPER PUMPED for summer. Like, jeez. If I'm still happy when school is still in, I can't think of how happy I'll be once it's OUT!

This is going to be SUCH a good 3 months.

SONG OF THE (MONTH?)

White Unicorn by Wolfmother

Have you been to the carnival
I would like to see you
There’s a whole lot of people there
Who would like to be you
With the white unicorn, across her shoulder
Makes you think that she might of been
Someone who’s older, ahh yeahhh

And i know its on your mind
we've been drinking on the wine
that we drank from the serpents vine
Now we live in another time

We could live together...
We could live together...

She lives on the borderline, that they call hazel,
And the tent that she lives in, has the name of her lover,
Ahh yeah!

And i know its on your mind
we've been drinking on the wine
that we drank from the serpents vine
Now we live in another time


sister can you tell me when the day turns to night
she left without a word and wondered inside
how many days must i still wonder why
and see her face in every passer by

we could live together...
we could live together...

And i know its on your mind
we've been drinking on the wine
that we drank from the serpents vine
Now we live in another time

We could live together...