Fireweed is the song i am currently listening to by patrick watson

Ever have one of those perfect dreams that display what you really want? Like one of those ones induced by a flash of hormones an marijuana playing with your brain? Well I had one last night, and it's exactly what I want. I can't remember anything super specific but it really meant a lot to me. It's hard to explain, but it's just me and the person I love (no one specifically, just my dream person who didn't exist in real life, that I know of) spending a day together, just talking, and walking somewhere naturous. Something about smoking weed with just one other person feels so... intimate. It's just the two of us somewhere private, smoking it, and then we continue on our walk, holding hands, being ourselves, and do whatever we want. If I had just one day like that, I would be happy for a very long time.

So, I'm going to Holland in August! I can't wait. Turning 16 there, so I'll be able to legally get my drank on. Can't wait!!! I really hope I can find someone who I really like who is also.. interested in me. I want a romantic pen pal. (jesus fuck the wind blew my door shut and its dark and i'm alone and it scared the shit out of me)

Chris angers me sometimes. He seems so... disinterested all the time even though he has such a wonderful life. Lots of hot guys in his life, and whenever I try to talk to him he only replies with :P faces and one word answers. I'm going to send an offline message to him sometime, maybe I'll give him my blog and he'll know that I'm actually 15 years old. =D Wouldn't that be something? Bahh, I just don't know what he wants.

I'm definitely going to get a horrible mark in english. I don't do ANY homework. Mostly cause Mrs. Hunter is a dumb whore who should have gotten kicked out when we got EVERYONE IN THE CLASS TO SIGN A PETITION TO GET HER KICKED THE FUCK OUT. Godd.

I think I might like someone who I definitely should not like. Bahhh it feels so wrong but I think he's making subtle hints that he would be... interested. But I don't want to wreck things with him and a certain other person! AWimsfnsdfjkand. Maybe in the summer.

Oh, another thing. The song 'Summerboy' by Lady Gaga is also one of those things that I want. Kind of like the previously described dream, but different. I'd be quite content if I had someone like that for the summer, as well. Maybe the above person whom I was talking about?

So, I am quitting the football team this week FO SHO. Godddd I can't wait. McNab is gonna be super duper pissed, same with my dad/fraser. But whatevs, I'm not going through another 5 months of saying fuck my life I have football 6 days a week. Too bad for them. :P

Song of the day? 'Fill it up Again' by the Indigo Girls, my favorite lesbian folk rock duo.

Won't have you see me as your sad sack
Lost my something and I can't get it back
Or a kill on your trophy rack
I checked my schedule now my train is rolling down a track
Past the sadness of the salt flats
To the prospect of the land fat
Or just a lazy orange house cat
On the sofa where I'll be put up
You've been the hole in my sky, (you're) my shrinking water supply
Before my well runs dry
I'm going round round round the bend
Fill it up again
I'd like to say that it was clear to me
Love triangle geometry
But in the end it's still a mystery
The placement of affection and the dissaray
I gathered up the courage that it took
Made that bed
I took one last look
And you could hear the pages flapping in the wind blown
Book of my days, my days
One tank gone second thoughts are on my mind
What's this trip gonna cost me this time
The devil I know is starting to look awfully kind
But the new road is an old friend
Fill it up again


Happy 4/20 as of yesterday, and happy Earth Day as of tomorrow!

Here's to my first good blog in a real long time!

Aquarius =D I'm on a bus, mother fuckers!

1. Put your iTunes on shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds!
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name
5. Tag at least 10 friends
6. Anyone tagged has to do the same, because fun pointlessness spreads like a virus.

If someone says "Is this okay?" you say?
The Dope Show

How would you describe yourself?
Dance Macabre

What do you like in a guy/girl?
She is my Sin

How do you feel today?
King of Terrors

What is your life’s purpose?
Sunlight/Moonlight

What is your motto?
Thank God for the Suffering

What do your friends think of you?
One Red Thread


What do you think of your parents?
Love you to Death. Awweeee

What do you think about very often?
Bare Grace Misery

What is 2 + 2?
The Fundamental Alienation

What do you think of your best friend?
Cadence of her Last Breathe


What do you think of the person you like?
One More Night (Your Ex-Lover is Dead)


What is your life story?
Flyswatter

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Harvey Two-face


What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Lost Northern Star

What will you dance to at your wedding?
This Celluloid Dream


What will they play at your funeral?
Violet

What is your hobby/interest?
Darkness Incarnate

D:

What is your biggest fear?
Seven Sirens and a Silver Tear

What is your biggest secret?
Gabrielle

What do you think of your friends?
User Friendly


What will you post this as?
Aquarius

Holy efffff, last night was pretty fun.

Except for when mallory and warren stole my phone. And i freaked. And I was a fool in front of Red hot. That was a problem, but whatever, they didn't find anything out. Phew.

Found my swipe card for work, finally! After cleaning my room for the first time this year! =D.


NEW METRIC ALBUM = AMAZING. HOLY. I just wanna marry it. Or Emily Haines, but she would be unhappy cause I couldn't make love to her. Oh well.

I think i'm gonna play with those devil stick things i made in quebec.

Love stuart

Song of the day: Collect Call by Metric


If the fire's out baby
How you gonna keep me warm
Supposing you let me
With the door wide open no one can leave

I know it's a lie I want it to be true
The rest of the ride is riding on you
Over goodbyes we'll buy some place for
Wishing you could

Keep me closer
I'm a lazy dancer
When you move I move with you

If somebody's got soul
You gotta make the move
Make the move

I know it's a lie I want it to be true
The rest of the ride is riding on you
Over goodbyes we'll buy some place for
Wishing you could

Keep me closer
I'm a lazy dancer
When you move I move with you